My 1st post

After researching & planning for more than a month, finally my blog has come to life. I'm more than excited to start writing. Too many things to tell, to share & to ask. It may sound a bit old school by kick start my first post talking about myself. However, this should be the best ever 1st post that I can think of.

I used to be a working woman for the past 11 yrs. Working 9-6, Mon-Fri, ups and downs, happy & sad moments. Dealing with purchase orders, reschedulings, problem invoices not to forget quality issues. Mundane but secured, in my own comfort zone.

Two years back, my spouse relocated to a country which is 90mins ferry ride + 45mins car ride + 65mins plane ride away from me. I started pondering (seriously) about future. Kiddos' & ours'. At that moment, my son was 5 while my daughter was two.

To reduce the impact from house chores stress, he get a live-in helper for me. Yet, I found myself having very lil time to spend with kiddos, not to say for myself. Battling with fatigue, undone task, skype-ing with my bread-winner, oversee the new helper as well as spending time with kids. I kept reminding myself to allocate at least 1 hour for each of them. Teaching, guiding & interacting. Sometime, ended my day in despair; unable to accomplish the tasks.

A close friend said, there is no regret to let go your desire to pursue career advancement. They only need you now but not after they have grown up. It kept me ponder for some time. They are in their vital years that nothing can be more valuable than to be there for them. To be with them now is to shape them to how I want them to be, also to build a stern foundation; not only knowledge but their characters. With these noble thoughts, I decided to quit my job.

There I go & here I'm now. Forget about my career plan, forget about my pay day, forget about my nice working suits/shoes & trays of accessories, as well as fun luncheon chats with my fellow colleagues. Too, forget about worrying what to fill up in my resume after years & what should I do when my kids are no longer need me. In return, I keep looking at ways to add value to my life, to be more organize, and make full use of myself. I overwhelm myself with a long to-do list; with things that I can't do when I was working. Somehow, I found myself less efficient compare to when I was a working mom. Why? I suppose to have more time than before? Who stolen my time?

Well, I'll tell you why & how to overcome this in my next post.

Stay tuned. :-)